I had a chest x ray a few days ago and the technician said my lungs don't even show the expected amount of scarring for someone with my medical history. She said that she is actually suprised at how good they look with how prone to respitory infections I am.
I am still dealing with my meds. The doctor has taken me off the anxiety medication and has more than doubled my insomnia medication and I still can't get to sleep before three or four am and then can't get up until 11 or 12 oclock. First two days I slept 16 hours a day then she changed it and I didn't sleep for two days then she changed it again and it startted on the current pattern with the not being able to sleep until super late and then not being able to awaken . She changed the meds again after that but it had no effect on that. I also have been having serious equlibrium problems but instead of beijng dizzy it is an up and down kind of vertigo where it feels like I am on a boat in a storm or on a slow roller coaster. the most recent med adjustment helped some with that although it didn't effect the sleeping issue. Without the anxiety meds I have been having some pretty bad depression and anxiety issues. So hopefully we will be able to find something that will work. My doctor has given me a referall to a mental health specialist but I have to wait for an appointment.
I'm thinking I need to just stop taking them. Insomnia will be a positive if I want to use all that time driving. Everyone says it's so bad to go cold turkey off anti-depressants, but I don't see how I could feel worse.
I was parked at a light and this short black guy walked in front of my van. He looked like Gary Coleman, but after a second it was obviously not him. So I gunned the engine and ran him down. I paused the van when I was on the hill of his chest and let the weight of the van pop him.
I put it in park and jumped out. I ran to him crying and screaming apologies
I told him I'd get help I asked his name. It was Eddie
I jammed my hand in his mouth into his throat and though it was hard, I made a fist and knelt there until he suffocated
I knew he wasn't Gary Coleman.
Lovely visuals! does this mean if it WAS Gary Coleman, he'd have survived?
ReplyDeleteThe very fact that you would ask that shows that you don't understand why I'm doing this. I didn't invent death. I'm just killing people. Sure if death didn't exist than people wouldn't die. But that's not a realistic plan to have. I can tell by the way you express yourself that you love Gary Coleman very much. Not many people know this, but Gary Coleman of Different Strokes and Gary Cole who was in the Brady Bunch movies, are not related. In closing I would like to say I have since found out that Gary Coleman was already dead when I wrote this and I'm not sure if you using Gary Coleman and survived in the same sentence is really honoring to his memory. You need to define that on your own.
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